Never turning back!

I cannot turn my back on my abilities. My life has come full circle now. I accept internally that I am what I am. I cannot fight what always has been for me. I know that my family will not be able to accept me, they will thumb their noses at me. I will not step out of my shell until after I have moved into my own place.

My heart craves knowledge about what is happening to me. I was told by a very well renowned psychic that I needed to start doing readings, but I can't. I just cannot do it until I have grounded myself more and learned about my abilities. In time, I'll learn more about them.

I have done readings for about 5 or 6 people, give or take a few strangers. I can honestly say that I am sharpening them for certain!

Another late morning..

I was so drained yesterday for some reason. I have to begin limiting my abilities to be used maybe once a day. I am extremely tired and restless after giving readings to people. Half the time I wonder if giving them is even smart at this point because I have no idea what I'm doing. My spirit guides approach me with symbolism and impressions. I heard some music one night that wasn't playing in my home, had me somewhat concerned.

I live in an area where no one accepts me. I had an argument nearly with one of my friends because she did not believe that my abilities were real. I am beginning to think of them as a curse rather than a gift because it is so hard to deal with the rejection I get. I don't expect everyone to believe I have these abilities, I just expect them to respect me and my views. I am not the same person I was a year ago and I have to find a way to deal with that.. and so does everyone else!

Another fine how do ya do...

My abilities are biting me in the behind again! I was chatting with a guy this morning online. I had no idea anything about him. He tells me that he works with my ex-boyfriend and that he is going to ask him about me. He wants the skinny on me. He sent me a message that I scared him because I seemed to have all the right answers and that we had a lot in common. My abilities are leading me into a mess of trouble--if I have these abilities why don't they help me avoid this?